My Complex Life

I'm not going to talk about this at lenght but it feels wrong not to mention that i broke up with Cat last week. I havnt managed to figure anything out yet. All i am sure of is that i have done the right thing. At least for me. At least i think i'm sure of it. Anyway so that is messed up.

Also i am now in Kirkmichael, i couldnt afford to be in edinburgh any more. So i ran away. Not the right solution really, i am a bit cowardly. But here is my excuse: My sailing plan takes precedent, it has been a dream of mine for years now. I cant mess it up now.

The sailing has of course been messed up also. Nick finally did get back to me today: He doesnt like me. I am impulsive, i like to figure myself out as i go along. Nick is meticulous and plans every detail perfectly. This difference in outlook would have got very annoying. I cant say i'm too upset really, he was an odd sort of chap and would have become annoying simply because of his striking resemblance to a lizard. Also i had failed to get enough money together to pay for that trip. I would have ended up broke in the caribbean. Which while not a disaster is something I would rather avoid.

So now i'm heading off on board Blue Sky a Jeannea 49 that i sailed on last summer. It is owned by a gay couple; George and Michael. Collectively know as George Michael. I more or less got on very well with them last summer. I say more or less because any situation of confinement like that people will always get on your nerves. But i think it will be ace. Also they have a nice way of paying for all food and drink meaning i could sail to the caribbean and back with them without spending any money at all. So really its all for the best.

As things become more sorted over the next few weeks i shall update. But my plan roughly is:
-Spend a week or so at home
-go to ed to see cat and sort some things out
-hang around to see all the people in edinburgh i ran away from
-fly out to palma in majorca on the 21st
-sail to canaries slowly
-Leave for transat late november
-arrive caribbean mid december

figure the rest out when i get there

So that is all nice. Also a night or two in the pub will be needed around 16th.